When life gives you lemons…
ARGH!
I hate cliches. They suck and they’re overused but hey, most of the time they tell you the truth. And I don’t know how else to start this so excuse me while I start off with a cliche.
Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.
With that, I can say that I have NOT been working for the past months. I mean, yeah, I do complain A LOT. I can’t help it. I’m a whiner. I complain about why our work schedule is just “semi-flexible” and not literally FLEXIBLE. I don’t like the fact that I have to follow a new set of coding standards. I curse when I can’t make things happen. I get annoyed by the changes in the business rules. I complain about my salary. I argue about this and that. But deep inside, I know that I like what I’m doing.
I am enjoying this.
I AM ENJOYING EVERY BIT OF IT.
I guess I just like to be challenged. I find joy in building things. I like programming. I like developing. I like thinking. Yup, I know it seems ironic because I’m such a brat when it comes to dealing with just about everything. But believe it or not, I like challenges. I have very little patience though so in effect I am able to either FORCE myself to do it or quit. I always feel bad when I end up choosing the latter.
Anyway, I once had a chance to talk to an officemate over a beer about passion. Yes, PASSION. Don’t ask. I know it’s weird. He told me nothing is impossible when you have passion. You don’t just do things to earn, you got to love what you’re doing. Everything will follow afterwards.
I don’t know if I have the same passion as he has. He’s got some INTENSE PASSION right there– a Kobe-like passion, if I may say. One thing that he made me realize about myself right now is that I’m sure that this is what I want. I mean, I don’t even know if I’m good at this but I am honestly having fun even with all the headaches and heartaches that come with it. Damn it, I think I love my job. Tell me if this is not love, what is?